I had been listening to a podcast, but I found it too hard to concentrate, so I turned it off. In the silence (and in the dark - let's face it, I haven't left school before 5pm for the past month), I didn't know what to do except cry out (and cry it out, for that matter).
I ended up turning on the radio, and these were the words I heard:
Just be held.
Your world's not falling apart, its falling into place.
I'm on the throne, stop holding on and just be held,
Just be held, just be held.
Can we just pause <dramatically> here for a second? Really, could the timing have been any better? I felt like I had found my personal soundtrack. The only thing I was missing from my very own Hollywood movie scene was foggy windows with rain slipping down the glass.
The song just struck me, as many a song has in my life. (I like music, what can I say?) And I was suddenly filled with peace. It's hard to explain, but I stopped crying and realized that the things that were bogging me down with worry were not deserving of my energy, stress, and tears. In our great, big world, I am so very small.
In that moment, I needed to know that. I needed to hear that. I needed to believe that.
Just be held. Yes, God - hold me now.